Achievements

Well this is what happened. My daughter had to do a life report. Questions she had to answer. Such as the pets she had. Her room and how it represent her. Her achievements and accomplishment and such. But it ended up making her stressed and upset. I guess is some ways it lets you know what kind of person you are in some ways. But her main thing other than doing it at the last minute. Was she had to list her accomplishments. That really upset her in the fact she felt that she didn't do anything that deserved saying she had something to be proud of or take pride in her self. She called me at work and was crying and upset because she felt she hadn't did anything that was so outstanding.

I asked her what did the other kids write about. She said that this one won this award. This was achieved something else and got some certificate. They all had something to show for what they took pride in their life. Which I thought was good but materialist. I told her to look deep in herself and take pride in what she had done in her life. No she didn't have a much of trophies or award. She had no certificates to show what she had done to show off to her friends and the world. She started to cry harder and I waited for her to calm down. She said see what I mean I have nothing to be proud of.

But instead I gently reminder her that those trophies will grow dust and old looking. The certificates will be sitting in draws and albums after they have all grown up and moved on in their lives as young adults. But guess what you have that will always be with you and can never grow old or dusty. I won't have it in some album waiting for you to get it when I am old and gray. I have you. She said "Mom". I said wait and hear me out before you "oh mom me".

She sniffled and listen. I told her look at all the things that you do naturally that no one can take away from you and that you have done for yourself. When you were in fifth grade you were doing sixth grade math "algebra". The teacher would explain it to you with the few other kids that were able to move on in math. Then she would teach the rest of the class of twenty or more kids fifth grade math and you had to figure it out yourself. Guess what you got a "A" with very little help because it was very nature to you. You taught yourself algebra and other math yourself because you are one grade above your own.

Look at your drawings which also come naturally to you. You thought I just throw the picture together and turn it in so it done with. Guess what your teacher ended up sending it to the art show in the district and you got first place for it when you were only seven years old. Something was so natural to you was thought of as brillent by other people in the community.

Look at now as we speak you always end up helping the younger and slow kids in class because the teacher feel that you can take on that responsiblity of teacher other in your class room. They have you tutor kids all the time. They ask and you respond with a positive outlook that someone needs something and you can provide. Because it has be so natural for you to help others in need.

You have always been a good friend. Your true and honest with them. Even if they hurt your feelings that you feel free that you haven't caved into the peer pressure that is always going on around you. You tell them that you accept them for what they are and what they do but you tell them when your doing bad things don't expect me to follow. You make your own choices and they respect you for your honesty. That is why you have good friends. Some of them I may not approve of but you have to make your own choices. Why other kids are smoking pot, having sex and getting drunk on the weekend. You have decided to stay away from that craziness knowing why add on to more stupidity. You have decided that it is not for you and don't have the urge to do either. But you let other around do it. You know that you can't stop it but you give them your opinion why you shouldn't and they make their own decisions.

And most important that you have always been true to yourself. You can look at yourself and laugh when you do something stupid. You can tell me or anyone that you screwed up and take the consequences even if you do like the outcome. But if you don't have the right answers you search them my asking questions and see what is out there.

Just because these things come naturally to you and you don't have something to show for it. Doesn't mean that you shouldn't be proud of yourself. Because you can never get trophies and awards for things that others don't notices. I notices because I see everything that you do. Others will look down upon them are really nothing. Tell you that it just being you. But guess what I see them as something to be proud of and take pride in yourself for all that you have accomplished in your so very young life.

She still said "oh mom". She hung up the phone and I guess she had to think awhile on what I said. She continued writing on her project. A couple hours later she called me to say she was going to bed and she had something she wanted me to hear that she wrote. She wrote my mom had to calm me down to tell me the craziness but I had more things to be proud of and I can take pride in myself for being me. That I was worth something even if I don't have award or trophy. I had myself and all my natural abilities. They are not much to other but they are worth more than anything that I can put on a shelf. Well that was basically what it said. She had tears in her eyes and choking voice on the phone which of course made me cry too. Which doesn't do good when your at work with a much of women say what wrong. I had to tell them it just my daughter being the good kid she always been. I just had to open her eyes a little bit to see what is there to be seen.

Damn I got lucky to have two great kids. I thank the good lord above that I was so lucky. But they have their down times but they are both great kids. Thanks again big guy up above.

Ecomony

Well I know that it has been a very long time since my last posting. I am terrible at this for sure. But I have the noticed that the economy is effective the medical field. As I work in labor and delivery. We find that many women or not having babies. There has been a large drop in deliveries at our hospital as well as the surrounding hospitals around our county.



Since I also work in the nursing home field and there is not as many patients being admitted at this time. Many people either or don't have the means to spend the money to have others to take care of their loves one. Due to the state medical care insurance they have been cutting back on spending money to send the elderly to rehab or nursing home before letting them go home. It becoming scary they way things are going right now.



So many people are out of jobs. I have no people in my own family. Plus many friends I have or know someone out of a job right now too. They are so hard to find right now too. If you are not in the military or medical field you are pretty much not guarantee a job. I know for some fields in the nursing speciality nursing such as NICU, L&D,CCU and SICU the jobs are hard to find. The med. surg floors have plenty of nursing. But people are finding that they are willing to take any job at the time and will work any floor. Some floors have cut back on the support system in the medical field too.



As I have told many people that they need to make themselves as less expendable as possible. If you can find a way to make sure that they can't live without you. We are right now doing extra around our floor to make sure they don't cut our hours back as they have on other floors. Staying seen at all times. Making ourselves available on our off days. Trying to cover all shifts they are not schedule instead of farming it out to other department staff.



So far managment have worked with us and trying to keep the hours the same and letting us pick up shift if possible. Since I work part-time at my other job and was not schedule for the month of May. So scamble for shift for the second job has been very hard. I turning in my schedule for availility but no guarantee. Which is scary because since each day I wonder if my husband will have a job because he works for the newspaper business. It is always a up and down issue in that field. They have cut back on staff and layed people off just recently. They were just bought out too. So it is right now a day to day or week to week if he will have a job tomorrow.



We have cut back or fun time and doing things right now. Any extra money I have put aside to keep just incase things change for us. So we are not planning on doing things outside of the home this year. I have not been driving me car long distances due to the raising gas prices. Cooking more at home. All our entertainment has been movies from netflix or blockbuster. I know it isn't much but never know when the next shoe is going to fall is nerve racking.



But it has made our family closer together. I know that this world will get better. But how much more do we slide before it get's better. I think about it all the time. I guess we can only see. Wake up each morning a say thank goodness I have some kind of job and I can feed, cloth and a roof over our heads. To help those that are in need. Only time will tell......