I have decided to compare death as giving birth. It is such a long process death. Since I am a woman I can see both sides of the coin of life.

First there is birth. The long awaited months of waiting for your new arrival. Some of us women have our child quick and painless almost. They come into labor with not much pain in the processes and deliver like it is a everyday occurs. Out comes their little bundle of joy kicking and screaming for their mother loving arms. Then the cooing and aahh's come about.

But then there is death. It can come swiftly to some. Some unknown source such as a accident and unexpected disease. So quickly it takes the lives of the innocence. May it be something man made or mother nature their here and then they are gone.

Then there is the woman that gives birth. Which comes to them days in advance but never really accomplish where they are going. She slowly pacing themselves into little aches and pains increasing slowly. Until finally they go into the hospital and then there is the long pushing and praying for them to come out into the world happy and health and life has then begun once again.

So then death comes to the ones that have lived and long exciting lives. Jumping in and out of other lives. Their poor little bodies are tired and need the rest of all the good they have done in the world. So they go to sleep and move on into the other world. Leaving us at peace by letting us know they have accepted what was dealt with them and they have left little pieces of them behind for us to always remember them by.

Or the labor of women you need some help to get started in their labor process. With the child that does not want to move from it warm womb into the world. With loving, guiding hands we help them give birth to the children in their lives.

To the last group of people that are coming to the end. We need to help them move on. Their little bodies don't want to give up but it slowly leaving them. They grasp unto life one more time and tell us they are not ready to die. Then they finally accept the fact in life that they are ready. With our kind and gentle hands we make them as comfortable as possible. We let them rest and keep them clean and comfortable and pain free while they tie up all the loose ends of things they have control of in their life. Then when we tell them it's okay to go. That we will survive after they are gone they can go.

I work in both ends of these in the field of medicine. Seeing the birth and death of humans. I see the innocence eyes of the newborn infant. Looking up this world in wonder. Accepting all around them as good. There is no evil in their eyes. They accept all unconditionally.

Then I seen the acceptance of death from those you have seen all in this world. All the evil nasty truth of humans in their life. They have seen good in people around them. Giving anything and everything. To show and guide the younger people. To see their children and spouses in their lives just one more time. To look upon them and smile and let them know that they have accepted all that was and is put before them. To please let them move on, by letting them know that they will be okay, once they have gone.

The joy I see in one job. I see the pain in others from the other job. The circle of live moves on without us. It moves in mysterious ways, no matter what we want. Just like in the beginning we come into this world. Then without us knowing it life is coming to an end.

Some of us accept what is coming as others fight to keep on living. But in the big scheme of life I have found that death is unpredictable as such as birth. I have slowly begun to accept death in helping those in need. To make them and their loves ones as comfortable as possible until god and the angels have taken them from us. I tell the love ones that we cannot predict when he will take the life of their loves one as we cannot predict when we come into this world.

With each death, I hold on to what I was taught. With each birth I enjoy the unconditional life that is giving. I treasure both of my roles in this career. It has opened my eyes in some things to become a wiser person.

I hope that I don't become numb or used to the idea of death. Because then I would not enjoy the other part of life and that is birth. I enjoy and immerse myself in the emotions that overflow within me. The joy of life and sadness and pain of death. They both weigh equally inside me. It lets me know that I am alive. That I can live in the moment and enjoy what life has given me. I learn to be humble in the fact that in the big picture I but a speck of dust.