Life

Well the New Year has started. It healing people life has slowed down. But it will pick up soon enough. It looks to be an interesting year to come. I find that times I look at my pass and see where I was and now the road that I facing in the future.

I been working as a License Nurse for 6 months now. I find that it is scary at times. But more rewarding. I have comfort many to the next road in their lives. Which is sad to say death. But I hope that I have made them more comfortable and not alone in their last breaths. I try and make it as painless as possible. The sad things to see them die alone is the worst. There has been a few family members able to see their parent to the end as the parent as see them into the world.

It gives you perspective that there is an end. Facing death has been something that I have been able to accept better than most. That is because I had a very wise grandfather that accepted it and went out in his own right. But the frustrations that he went through towards that end was most likely not the way one would go. But I see others do the same thing. They decided how to walk into that light. The only thing that I have to support them is that I don't want them to be scared or alone. I think the pain that some go through is the least of their worries. I think the idea of being alone is what scares them most. I think they are more comforted by the idea of having a loving hand holding theirs. Telling them that they are not alone and that it is okay to go to other side.

I have many things that I want to accomplish before my time goes. The list is ever growing and some of the things I have been able to cross off. But there is something else that follows to keep the list nice a long.

The one theory that I have always thought is that if we feel that we have accomplish all that we wanted on our list of life. Then there is nothing else to fulfill those needs then our times has come.

SO I make sure my list is long. I tried and live without regret. All the decisions I have made have been my own and I hope that I leave with many feeling and learning from my thoughts and idea. That is when my time comes and I move on to the path death. I just hope that there is someone able to tell me that it is okay and that you are not alone.

I am ever growing emotionally and experiences wise is this field. I sure there is many more things to learn. I can't wait for those to open up for me.